Today, Good Day.

So...
he didn't show up.
and surprisingly
i wasn't that upset
you know?
cuz like...
i realized
chris is sorta like one of the closest friends i have...
he's there for me when kelvin never is, and i'm there for him when there's nobody left.
In a way i guess he's kinda my support and i'm his support.
Like...
i was there for him when his dad died... and like... there wasn't anyone he could talk to really. I remember feeling so bad for him... like honestly, he lost his mom as a kid and now his dad is gone too? i can't even imagine what it must be like for him. I guess i kinda decided then that i wasn't ever going to leave him (like die i mean). Cuz it occured to me:
Chris has been hurt so many times. His heart is full of hurt and there's nothing i can do about it. He's been picked on and stuff and yet he still finds the courage to face each day head on.
Iunno...
like
i think... Chris will be someone that i will be friends with for a long time to come.
Even today
i hung out with just him
because Kelvin didn't show up.
and like...
i had a good time.
But... i think we gave off the wrong impression though. Lots of people were staring at us LOL especially when we went to marble slab to get ice cream. The dude was at the cash register and like he looked at Chris and was like "paying together?" almost like he expected him to pay for me too LOLLL XD
I think i can be more at ease when i hang with Chris though. Like i'll admit it started out awkward and stuff because i was like 'snaap. it's just me and him. ALMOST LIKE A DATE?!?!?!'
but then i kinda got used to it and yeah... i had lots of fun :)
The movie was awesome too. XD
I was honestly surprised though, like... i wasn't upset at all when kelvin didn't come. instead, i kinda felt like: 'well, that idiot isn't gonna show up... but i'm gonna have fun even without him.'
and i did :)
we went to BP's first and like we ordered our food. Like, i honestly think that i talk more with chris than i do with kelvin. cuz kelvin doesn't even try to keep the conversation going while chris and me can talk endlessly.
I found that we laughed a lot when we were talking :) i was very happy because i was so worried that he'd still be upset about his father's death. Like... i know losing a parent isn't easy... and like it's only been like 2 weeks or so... but i was so honestly scared that i would never see him smile again.
To me, my friends' smiles are something i never want to lose. And that goes for everyone.
So... i was very very happy when i saw chris smile and laugh.
After we finished eating, we walked to the theater and like were looking for movies to watch, since the timing wasn't that great, there was only like 3 options and so we ended up choosing 'The Perfect Getaway' which is like a horror/thriller/action (not really) kinda thing.
Like when we were choosing the movies, i wasn't sure what he wanted to watch so i asked him and he was like 'whatever you choose is fine with me' and like to me, it felt like he was saying 'i think you wanna watch the romantic comedy so this is my way of telling you that i'm okay with it'
but... i guess the thriller movie was better so we chose that instead XD
I'll admit, the movie was a bit awkward... because...
I NEVER REALIZED THE SEATS WERE THAT CLOSE!!
likee
we would comment and then
the first time i wanted to say something
like
i turned my head
and nearly freaked
because
his face was like so close
and i was like 'SNAP WHY ARE THE SEATS SO FREAKING CLOSE TO EACH OTHER'
and likee
i could pretty much feel his body heat.
and
STUPID CHRIS TOOK THE ARM REST >=(
for the entire movie too >=[
but
I ATE MORE M&M'S THAN HIM >=]
hahahaha
but but but
after that
i got used to it again
and like the movie was crazyyy~~
UNEXPECTED TURN OF EVENTS
lots of attempted stabbing/shooting though XD
a bit bloody but otherwise AWESOMMEE
we were like 'that annoying girl is gonna die first'
AND TURNS OUT
THAT GIRL WAS THE KILLER'S ACCOMPLICE =O
lol we were so shocked XD yea...
and then afterwards we just hung out... went to marble slab... EB games... and then his mom came to pick him up so he could go pick John up so they could hang at his house.
Yea...
all in all, i guess a pretty good day??
but now,
i'm kinda upset at kelvin
because
he didn't even bother to call me to tell me that he wouldn't show for sure. Like, he only sent me that one email saying that he 'might not show up'.
Like wtf
just give me a straight answer dammit.
You know what just occured to me?
i've spent time alone (outside of school) with almost everyone that is like close to me EXCEPT FOR MY OWN BF.
how fucked up is that?
man...
i think i should seriously consider breaking up with Kelvin.