Confuzzled.

-sigh-
soo...
he signed on at around 7...
i thought i'd be happy to talk to him...
turns out i didn't even WANT to talk to him...
but...
idk...
its just...
i'm still mad at him i guess..
well
not really mad, more like apathetic. i don't feel anything right now.
argh.
i just.... its just so frustrating.
i don't know HOW i should fucking feel right now.
should i feel happy?
should i feel angry?
like. after all those emails that get freaking shorter and shorter
i'm sorta at the end of my fuse
but the thing is, instead of a bomb at the end of that fuse, there's just a giant nothing.
Its like i don't even know how to feel anymore, not after everything that's happened.
Like seriously
AAAUUGHH
FUUCCK
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCKK
*BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEPPPPPPPPPP*
-sigh-.....
i'm just so confused...