FML

Honestly
you know what?
if this is what it's like to love you
i'd rather hate you.
If this is what i have to go through every single day of my life until you have to leave
I'd rather leave you now.
Like seriously.
I planned this fucking get together for TWO FUCKING MONTHS NOW.
and like 2 days before it actually happens
you DARE send me an email saying
'oh, i might not make it, so if i don't show up, you know why.'
WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU.
no sorry?
no apology?
no nothing?
to me, it sounds like you don't even FUCKING CARE
you know what?
i don't even think I fucking care anymore.
Really now,
what do you expect me to do?
just stand around there waiting for you like a love-sick puppy?
i'm not waiting for you anymore
seriously
go fuck yourself.
i'm so mad at you right now i dont even GIVE a fucking crap if you read this.
You have no idea how much i hurt every single fucking day.
You have no idea how much i want this to work out.
You don't know what it's like to go through every day with the knowledge that one day you'll just get up and leave without caring that i'm left behind to pick up the pieces.
If this is what it's like to love you...
i'd rather hate you.