I Give Up.

This is honestly not worth my time anymore.
Why does this always happen?
Problems just keep piling up
and no one understands.
no one fucking understands how much i hate this
no one fucking understands how much i go through
its always 'my life sucks' 'fml' 'i epic failed' blah blah blah
fuck you
you don't fucking understand.
i hate this so fucking much.
i'm so tired of having to deal with everything
i'm so tired of people not trying to understand me
i'm so tired of everyone assuming they know who i am
i'm so tired of not having someone who i can actually trust
i'm so tired of life in general.
Why do i put up with all this crap?
'if this is how you view life, then you are depressed'
NO FUCKING KIDDING.
I'M SORRY, YOU ONLY NOTICED THAT NOW AFTER FUCKING HOW LONG?
jeezus christ.
you want me to talk to you?
why the hell should i talk to you when i know from experience that it won't do any good?
you don't understand.
you never understand.
no one understands.
so just fuck off
leave me alone
let me deal with my own crap
because honestly, that's how i've been getting through life
no thanks to you.
Like...
everything has gotten past the point where its just 'not okay' anymore.
its gotten to the point where i REALLY am so fucking tired of having to do the same thing each and every single day for the past fucking 15 years.
like seriously. gtfo of my life.
just..
leave me alone.
if i'm going to suffer, at least let me suffer in peace.
don't preach to me.
don't 'try' to solve my problems
don't even 'try' to LISTEN to my problems (because honestly, you should've done that years ago)
just... fuck off.
how the hell am i supposed to know what to do with my life?
you're asking me to make all my life's decisions within ten minutes.
i can't do that
even you fucking told me at my age you didn't know what to do.
SO WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU ASKING ME TO FIGURE EVERYTHING OUT?
just...
ugh.
i'm trying my best to solve all these problems
but i'm no one man miracle.
you're telling me to make all these decisions
and honestly this is all getting to me.
you know what?
i fucking hate christmas now.
for the past few years, christmas has always sucked ass for me
i hate this.
screw that, i hate life.
i hate MY life.









you want me to make decisions?
well, keep this up, and there won't be decisions to make







because i won't even fucking be here anymore.