This Love.

I feel so happy today :)
hehehe... <3
today
i actually felt loved.
ABOUT TIME.
XD
because
today, i think he smiled at me more times than he has smiled for a long time.
And you know i love his smiles :) <3
SINCE HE SMILED A LOT, DOES THAT MEAN HE MISSED ME?!
i asked him if he missed me,
and he hesitated and then was like 'mmmm'
...YOU DIDN'T MISS ME?!?!?!
YOU HESITATED T____T emo tears.
but...
in the bandroom yesterday at lunch,
i was happy.
because, when i went to go throw out my pear, he came with me (HE DOESN'T USUALLY FOLLOW) and then i forgot what he said, but i pouted and walked away
and he then came up behind me and hugged me :)
i was surprised because he doesn't usually do that kind of stuff. not unless he's in a sappy mood which is almost like never.
and today
at lunch
in the bandroom (always there lol)
when i was sitting down
he was standing behind me
and i looked up at him and asked for a 'chu'
and he kissed my forehead and chuckled X3
WARNING! THE FOLLOWING PARAGRAPH IS INSANELY CORNY AND MUSHY. PLEASE DO NOT READ IF YOU DO NOT ENJOY LAUGHING AT HOW HOPELESSLY IN LOVE I AM.
WAAAHH~~
it wasn't just a normal kiss though
it was like
really gentle
and kind <3 (...i'm so tempted to write 'tender' but that's just too corny LMAO)
like
even though it was just a small chu
i felt...
very loved.
and like
he doesn't chuckle
but he did
hehe....

i wonder...
is he happy to see me?
did he miss me at all during the summer?
Like, i was thinking
maybe during the summer he didn't miss me much because he never really thought about it, but now that we're together again, he's happy.
Kinda like he unconsciously misses me but can't really tell.
like, i think that was the case for me
except i KNEW i missed him
i would feel lonely sometimes,
but other times i was okay.
Life goes on you know?
it's only when you think about the other, that you realize how much you wish they were there.
And besides, kelvin is much better at reasoning with his emotions than i am.
So... i think since he's being so nice, it's his way of saying 'I'm glad that you're here again'
haha... i'm glad i'm with him again too <3

I wish... he would stay in this mood forever XD <3 X3
i like the 'gentle' kelvin.
because usually i deal with the 'playful' kelvin.
well, not saying he isn't gentle with me (the dude treats me like freaking glass), but like, emotionally gentle.
I think... i need to learn to speak 'KELVIN LANGUAGE'
XD
i need to learn to interpret his actions and his mood better.
That will be my goal this year.
Screw getting distinctions in school, my goal is to understand my poi poi better.
OMG
I HOPE I GET TO WALK HOME WITH HIM TMRW :)
well, not to his house, but like
halfway there.
walk to fife.
Even though doing so is making him go the long way...
BUT FUCK THAT >=]
i want to spend time with him haha :P
...
...
I...wish that this love will last forever <3