Reality Check.

I don't get it (i think i start a lot of my blogs stating that i don't understand something LOL)
Like...
just listening to people talk and how they think and shit.
I seriously don't understand whats up with people and being so fake.
Why would you even WANT to be fake?
If it were me, i would want someone to become friends with me because they like who i truly am, not because they like who i pretend to be. If you pretend to be someone, you'll never have any best friends at all, because by putting up a facade, you put everybody at arms length.
Wouldn't you rather have a small group of close friends rather than a large group of friends who you can't go to if you're crying?
I want people to like me for who i am. So i don't understand why everybody is so freaking concerned about how many friends they have.
Everyone's always like 'ohh i'm such a loner... i don't have that many friends' and blah blah blah.
WHAT AM I? CHOPPED LIVER?
I'M your fucking friend GODDAMIT, i count for something.
I don't care if you were the world's ugliest person. i don't give a shit how you look, all i care about is who you are. If you're a nice person and have a good personality that i can get along with, then yea, i want to become your friend. but if you're pretty on the outside but like ugly as hell on the inside, then fuck off. I don't need someone who tries to be beautiful on the outside only to hide how ugly they truly are on the inside.
I'll be honest, before, i never thought this way.
In junior high, i was so concerned about having friends and being socially accepted that i always pretended to be someone who i wasn't. To be honest, it hurt doing that every day. Then i started dating Kelvin and almost everything changed. Yes, he was in AC and yes, he was considered a fucking nerd. Needless to say any social life i had before that went right down the drain after i started dating him. and you know what? at first i was so upset and i cried about it every night. then i realized: i don't fucking care.
I love him. He loves me. Most of my friends then didn't love me the way he loved me. Most of them didn't treat me the same he treated me. Not because i was his girl friend, but because he liked me for who i truly was. He didn't judge me, and when i let down my barriers and allowed him to see who i truly was, he didn't leave me. he didn't say 'oh, you're different than what i thought, i guess i don't like you anymore'. No, he didn't say any of that, instead, he loved me even more for it because he knew that i needed someone to stand by my side, and he wanted to fill that role.
Its true, we all need people in our lives to survive. We all need relationships. I'm not saying that as long as you have one person who'll be there that you don't need anyone else. I'm just saying consider who those people are. Who are the people you can truly count on for being there when you need them the most. Who are the people who you can trust with your life and know that they'll never let you down.
Those are the people you should stick with and hold close to you.
Sure, its nice to have other friends, i'm not saying you shouldn't. but it shouldn't bother you if you don't.
I'm perfectly content with the amount of friends i have now. I know lots of them love me for who i am. And if some of them are fakers then i guess that maybe i had a lapse in judgement. I don't really care.
And, just to be frank.
If everyone in the world was a faker...
i'd rather stand alone.
So here's a shout out to everyone.
If you're willing to stop faking and be who you truly are...
i think you would be much happier.
To be honest, i think the world would be a better place.