hahaha...
you know, sometimes i really wonder about my life.
like... so much has happened these past few weeks and it feels like i'm losing myself. i don't even know who i am anymore. i can't sort out my feelings, i don't know WHY i feel whatever it is i feel compared to before when i used to know exactly why i felt a certain way and what caused it.
i figured out... i don't like change. XD
i like routine... and i like something i can rely on.
I think it's because i'm scared of what i don't know. I'm scared of what could happen and what will happen because i want to be able to anticipate anything and everything so that i will be able to keep up this facade i have going.
i don't WANT change. i don't want anything new. fuck.
haha
another thing i've realized.
i've been a coward all this time
i've run away from anything that has caused me pain
probably why i've left my blog alone for so long
and like...
i think...
i like having someone.
i like the company.
i like having someone always there for me.
so...
boy hunting time :D
ROFL ROFL ROFL.
but yeah... i completely forgot what i was gonna blog about thanks to my conversation with chris.
oh well. XD
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