Emotions.

Lol this blog is not going to make any sense at all.
I don't know what brought this on, probably pms since i just suddenly had a complete 180 mood swing.
it's like...
i don't know if he cares still or not.
LOL okay, maybe that's not true.
it's more like...
i'll say this first: i gotta stop reading those damn romance articles and '15 signs that a breakup is coming your way' kinda shit.
because honestly, it REALLY depresses me because like... the stuff on it isn't compeltely true, yet it's not wrong either.
Not to mention you get those quizzes where it's like 'is he into you?'
and then you go through it thinking 'i'm not gonna take this seriously' but at the end you get the result 'how the hell are you still together?' and yeah. sucks ass.
But...
i won't lie, i've actually had this feeling for a long time now.
Like... i get the feeling that i'm only around for kicks. or 'bonuses' if you get my drift.
Really now, if you don't want to continue on with this relationship, then why the hell do you keep telling me to stay every time i try to break up with you? frick.
You tell me to stay, and i give you another chance and you just go back to doing the same thing. Come on, you're smarter than that. Your grades prove it. but then again, grades are all about textbook stuff... not common sense.
Like half the time, he's always staring off into space when i'm talking to him. If you don't want to listen to me, don't pretend. just say so. not that hard. it's not like i'm going to kick your ass (okay, maybe i will) but really.
Ugh.
you know what?
i'm going back to what i did a year ago.
just completely stop chasing you and see if you bother to come chase after me.
i'm not freaking running after you anymore.
And if you ask me what's wrong.
how about you take a look at our relationship and YOU tell me.